A couple months go by and its May 15th, 2015. Tom’s travel and the kids busy sports schedules took priority, but we both new at this point that it was time to have the dreaded Divorce talk. We decided to get through the day together and we would talk that night and come up with a plan to separate. I walk into my garden that morning to find that our beloved cat had peacefully laid itself to rest. Again another foreshadowing of what would come to pass.
5/2015
We go to Shanes baseball game and Tom was complaining of neck pain. He had been for a few months and I remember telling him on mothers day to go have it checked out as he said the pain would radiate from one side to the other. We both thought it was just his travel and the stress of his job catching up with him however. We arrive home and Eve had laid out appetizers and baked a cake and hung black crepe paper in the form of an X across our kitchen, which for being only 10 was amazing and I still think she had help from her twin sister and angel Ella. I thought at the time it was her way to have a memorial for Lilly our cat, but again the back drop of what was about to happen next was being laid out.
Tom decides to go have his neck worked on by his father-in-law who was a chiropractor and worked with non-traditional and natural medical practices. I went outside to pray and think as I knew when he came home we would have the big talk. I looked up at the sky and this giant white X made from airplane trails was above. The symbolism meant a lot to me as I will blog about how the stars and the letter X meant I had turned myself right side up again and now had a voice in my marriage. I had come a long way since that first session with Suzette, which honestly I had been so focused on my butterflies guiding me that I forgot about my 5/15/21 dream and what she had predicted.
Hours go by however and I don’t hear from Tom and I begin to worry. I go in to the hallway and our dog Lucky ( which I have some amazing stories as well at how he came into our life , but for another blog), got into a drawer and out of 100’s of pictures pulls out the one of Tom picking him out at the breeder. Some how he chewed a heart out with wings and it was laid on the ground as you see. I knew then something was wrong! And, then I get the call from his mother that they were in the ER and they had found evidence of cancer in his liver. Obviously at this point all divorce talks are off the table and we are now fighting for his life!
I will never forget the moment I saw Tom sitting with his head down as he was faced with evidence of cancer and his eminent death. My dream of trying to open the locker and what Suzette said it meant had come to pass on exactly 5/15/15. What was hidden behind that locker had now been revealed and it was a dreadful feeling for us all. But, because I believed that God is bigger than the numbers and I had already been given a miracle with my daughter Eve, we were determined to face this with HOPE he would survive!
We meet with the oncologist a week later and he said four rounds of Chemo and he was hopeful Tom would be in remission by the fall. He had a rare form of cancer, but with Tom being only 42 and seemingly healthy he was hopeful, and so were we! By the second round of chemo I knew however that his body wasn’t strong enough to get through another round. I was trying my best to care for him and encourage him to stop chemo, gather his strength and try alternative medicine, but he was determined to tough it out.