It was October 2014. I was in therapy, knowing my marriage was failing and I had lost who I was. I felt hopeless and stuck with no voice or clue on how to “fix” things. I was tired of hurting and trying and hoping. My therapist encouraged me to do some “art therapy” to unlock what it was that was at the core of my pain. Im not an artist but I knew that wasn’t what this was about. I had no idea where to even begin but on a warm fall Saturday morning I looked around at the artwork of my kids and I had the vision of what became the catalyst “artwork” to lead me to my “butterflies”. Its layers of my life that I pieced together. I knew it had a hidden message, but I didn’t have the eyes to see how it could help me. A friend of mine encouraged me to see a psychic to see if she could help me. I was obviously so skeptical, but I trusted my friend and thankfully so because that one hour session with Suzette (echoesfromtheuniverse.com) would be what I needed to get through the hardest time of my life. If anyone is interested in a reading from her I strongly suggest to check out the website above. I have had four calls with her and they have truly been life changing and so helpful through my journey.
2014
Back to November 2014 though, I arrive to her home a bit nervous, but I instantly feel comfortable as she had such a calming presence. I sit across from her and she looks at me and says “ I see butterflies all around you”, then asks if I had lost a child. I told her of losing Ella and she shared how she and my grandma June, who I watched die when I was 16, were going to help guide me. She asked if I had a picture of my grandma and mom had just sent me the one on of her on the motorcycle that week, so she definitely had my attention now. She said that whenever I see a “butterfly” in any form from a tattoo or a real one, it will mean “ Im on the right path.” She also told me she saw a hawk and the constellation andromeda, both of which have come later to help me that I will blog about as I go.
Circa 1940
We continued the session and I told her that I woke in the middle of the night with a vivid dream that I knew in my gut meant something. I was trying to open up a locker and I was feeling panicked. I can still see the numbers spinning 5-15-21, 5-15-21! She told me the 5-15 meant that in May 2015 she saw Tom with his head down and there were two huge things of evidence coming at him. She asked me if I knew what that meant. I knew he had two major lawsuits against him so that’s what I thought it was, but that wasn’t the evidence that he was faced with. She also told me she saw our marriage dissolving at that time, but that it would be for the better. Come May 2015 just as she predicted I have a memory of Tom with his head down, but even worse than I had thought he was facing evidence of stage four cancer. He fought hard, but tragically five months later he passed on October 18th, 2015. A tragic ending for everyone who loved him, but I can truly say its possible to heal and reconcile with those we’ve lost after they are gone and get through times like that with supernatural guidance. But those stories are for later in my blog so keep following my blog.
Going back to that session with Suzette she looked at my art therapy at the very last and said it was a compass to help me and that there was more under the water that would reveal itself. My “artwork” has continued to evolve as I do and there really was so much “under the water” that helped me heal on my journey, but its really the “butterflies” in my life that have been the most transformational. However, it took real butterflies literally hitting me in the face, crawling up my leg and showing up all the time in crazy ways, to help me believe that maybe Ella and my grandma were really up there and going to help guide me on the “right path”. It was a rocky one, but all along the way I knew it was the RIGHT one.