The Butterfly Blogs!
Do you ever wish you had wings to fly in order to rise above your hardships ? Have you ever felt lost, overwhelmed, confused , overcome with grief, anger, fear, pain or hopelessness? I have been handed my fair share of “worst case” scenarios and have dealt with all of these emotions, but I’m here…
Before the ‘Butterfly”
We are all born into a unique body at an exact time and place with genetics, family dynamics, belief systems and environmental situations that we have no control over. We are all so different, with everyone just trying to do their best. As you read my background think of your unique blueprint and how it…
How the “butterflies” began.
It was October 2014. I was in therapy, knowing my marriage was failing and I had lost who I was. I felt hopeless and stuck with no voice or clue on how to “fix” things. I was tired of hurting and trying and hoping. My therapist encouraged me to do some “art therapy” to unlock…
Beginning to believe!
My other Grandma passed away that January . In December I had had a vivid dream of her passing, which I later found out she did pass over, but came back as she said her job wasn’t quite finished here on earth. She lived a beautiful life and is still an inspiration for me. At…
My 5/15 dream comes to pass!
A couple months go by and its May 15th, 2015. Tom’s travel and the kids busy sports schedules took priority, but we both new at this point that it was time to have the dreaded Divorce talk. We decided to get through the day together and we would talk that night and come up with…
We all believe now in my ‘butterflies’!
It had been three days of Tom not being able to keep anything down and he was in horrible shape. I knew I needed to get him to the hospital. He was being so stubborn however as he hated the hospitals understandably. A lot of cancer patients die from getting the flu or other complications,…
“Dragonflies”
It was July 18th, 2015 our 17th wedding anniversary a month before the whole ‘butterfly’ ER story. Tom had just started his second round of Chemo and every day I saw him declining on all levels. His weight was dropping, his pain was worsening, and emotionally he was going dark. He was oven heavy pain…
A Hummingbird, a Shark Tank episode and 1111 shows up!
The next two days were increasingly difficult for Tom. The tumor was continuing to obstruct his bowels so nothing could go in or out of his body. A tube was inserted down his throat to remove the waste, but it was very clear that he couldn’t survive like this. It also became very evident to…
A microwave and a meal magically appear!
On my way down to the hospital I get pulled over by a cop for speeding. Thankfully he let me go as I tell him that my husband is being transported to UCLA. Half way down and I learn however that his transport was delayed to the following day. It gave me time however to…